December 6 was a memorable night. It’s been a memorable weekend. One of the best I’ve ever had. Thanks guys.
I talked and I listened. I learned a lot and I feel like I’m accepted if not completely understood. Not just Friday night, which was one for the books, no mistake, but today as well.
I still haven’t decided how personal I want to make this blog, but I’ll give this entry a whirl and see how I feel about it. Bear with me.
Last night saw five guys opening up like guys aren’t supposed to, at least not where I come from. A lot of rules were left at the door if not discarded outright. We talked for, oh, nine hours. It was astonishing and humbling, because I’ve worked hard to become someone I can respect, and I know few people bother to really make the effort, but I have.
But I haven’t really stopped to wonder if it’s working, you know? Over the years it’s just become my nature to always be thinking about improving myself. And last night I just got a ton of feedback. The ol’ progress report. And I was humbled and honoured (if I can use such a tacky term). I was honoured that not only am I so lucky to have these friends in my life, but they actually care enough about me to tell me how they feel. That kind of honesty and encouragement affects me so profoundly.
I feel sorry for people like Talktalk’s boss, who’s such a redneck ass that he can never dream of becoming anything better. He’s just an ass, and that’s all he’ll ever be. Irredeemable.
Talktalk: your boss is killing your spirit! Ditch that bitch! And thanks for staying last night, and going down that road. You’re my brother.
Grant: you and I have a crazy symbiosis going on. I almost wish I could be someone else so I could watch the two of us work off each other. You’ve had an effect on my life. Thanks.
Judd: I’m one of the lucky ones that you’ve let inside your world. Thanks for sharing. I know you’re trying to kill me, but you’re doing it out of love and respect and I can dig that.
Jason: you’ve blown my life wide open, you crazy frantic bastard. If life is a game, we just levelled. We’re shockingly alike in a lot of ways… like our insecurities and doubts. I know it’s going to be a trip getting to know you. Pun fully intended.
Aaron: last night was a good one. You weren’t there but we were all exactly where we needed to be. This gang is an awesome force, and it’s all because of you. Thanks for believing in me. Alpha males aren’t supposed to co-habit, but we do alright. Full respect. And just know that I am a little in awe of the power of your charisma. We’re going the distance.
And.
Amy: today you took me for a complete 180. All you did was smile, and I knew we weren’t done yet. I believe in you. I don’t know if you even understand what that means yet, but I’m going to show you. You took an independent man and by sheer force of spirit you’ve opened him up again. This is what it feels like to have a touchstone. Thank you. We really are good enough for each other.
/me bows. We are really good for each other, you and I. Balance and grounding, expansion and adventure. Our lives are so much richer for having each other in them. Without you I would have missed out on some life-changing experiences.
And who could have imagined all of this back when we were trading forests, swamps, islands and plains?! :)
COMMENT:
You two are geeks, Dub-A! Then again, I may be MORE of a geek for understanding WHY you are geeks.
Or something.
As for the night, I agree fully. Such an eerily perfect exchange of energy and brotherhood. The part that really gets me is that I know, deep down, that things are only going to get better.
Here’s to growing, taking over the world, and being able to laugh like the lunatics we are while we do it.
*hugs back*
DJ, I had a great time with you n’ the boyz on Friday night, and I hope we can re-live those moments again sometime, because I’m still reeling from the good vibes we created/enjoyed.
I value your friendship a LOT, and like I said Friday night, I have a deep respect for you. You’re doing it all right, good sir, and I hope to do half as well as you have. You kick ass. :)
Yowza, sounds like quite the night! :)
DJ, I have much to thank you for. The introduction to this new enviroment which has had a profound effect on a shy introvert has been a large blessing.
This is to take nothing away from Jester who unbeknown to him has contributed greatly.
What can someone say about Judd, Grant and double A exept that there are not three better friends to have on your side.
Aw, TalkTalk.
Much respect to you as well, mah friend. And remember, if you want my gum, just TAKE it! That’s what friends are all about, m’kay?
Haha.
Thanks for the kind words DJ. Who knew what would become of that initial pairing. You and I sitting in front of Wondermilton with the selectum, house tunes, and chili lights– bullshitting our way into $20,000 dollar contracts…
We’ve come a long way from there and in some ways, never left. It’s been a refreshing ride. I appreciate your patience and council. You’ve taught me that there are no limits in life, and we’ve both seen there are no limits in what we can accomplish together.
-Whooooooooosh ~!
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